i guess all good things come 2 an end hey :) me n lucy on kinda a week off , gotta go down the hospital n see about the baby :') .

went camping lastnight about 15-20 ov us :L ended up sleeping in the car while every1 was abso cold :L:L , went paint balling in the day was quality fukin hurts tho :)

2k11

Past few days been shit but good at thw same time :)

Got my hair cut just like justin bieber !!!! baught £200 pair of high tops purple , baught a LA cap in purple n a hoodie n purple lmao all jb's :L:L yee im sad but deal with it :D:L

Me n lucy been speakin about the baby n wa we gonna do n things :/ its hard knowing tha ur gonna b a dad at this age n when ur goin in the army makes it even more hard :/ just hope she sees where im comin from .

jobs goin awsome tbh :) on over £1,500 a month after stops like so all going good xD , gonna look n see when jb's back in the 02 or m.e.n arena so i can go watch him for the 3rd time :L:L

mam n dads goin back 2 S.S :/ its hard knowing there goin back 2 the place u found love

Just Life :)

couldnt ask for a better week :) , utd lost we won our games n me n lucy has taken it 2 the next stage n its going good :) .

Plan for the next few weeks is save up again goin back 2 manchester for the day and night with lucy n might b a few others just 2 get away from here for abit :)

bought the new adidas preds with my name on them £180 they set me back :L

Let it Shine :D

Finished work for the day :D got a new job next week down in cardiff in super dry :) , sisters got a new car :D swift sport its lush !!! tha means iv gotta sell my clio so i can b in her car :(

Baught lucy's engagment ring cost loads fp's :/ all worth it tho :D. Blackpool in about 3 weeks with a few ov us just relax n shit :) then back 2 spain ;D

ffs!!!

Had a mixed day tbh , few texs from katy :/ askin y cant we meet up n things :L:L , i would of thought by nw tha she got the point like :L im not being sad or anything its just what she did went 2 far n i dnt wanna go back there ..., had my army date off in on the 11th of september :D so ill b home for my bday n things :D lucy aked me would i wanna get engaged 2 her in a few months b4 goin in the army so gives me time 2 think about it so kinda happy :)

anyway why would she tex me out of the blue 2 ask me can we see eachother :s? just dont get it tbh i want her 2 hate me n everything :L:L , if i still loved her i would of buh i dont im happy as i am shes happy so y go down tha road again ???

baught new boots again :/ thats like 3 pairs this season !!!:L baught the new preds so cant wait 2 jump in the bath with them on :D laters dude

Yeeees  just finished work :D long long day !!! , takin lucy 2 watch the city game 2night so hope they win :L!! , got welsh training 2moz n thursday then manchester friday :D hopes its a good weekend xD ,
got 3 games in 7 days in about 2-3 weeks -___- , playing scotland on celtic park , then got england schools on stokes field then bloody england on readings ground -____- , so loads of travling :L:L

cinema friday when we get 2 manchester :) , tour of  shitty trafford saturday because the girls wanna go there like wtf liverpool ftw !!!!

off for a shower then gonna pick the baby girl up :') laters

things.

watched the mighty liverpool play yday :) ell of a laugh with every1 loved every min ov it aha , wait for next season tbh!!!

Manchester on the weekend can't wait :) , might go paintballing or summin just 2 waste the weekend away like :) , gonna go blackpool for  the day just 2 walk on the beach n tha so hope its a nice weekend :)

Got the new liverpool top already <3  got Y.N.W.A 96 on it propa !!

Time......

Its been a good day buh even better night :) , things with me n soph r over for good she found out about the other girl n she was being a propa twat about it :L

Spend the day with lads then met up with the girls about 6ish :) , seen the most beautiful girl ever !!!!! her names lucy shes propa fit :P , shes small as love her :/:L u know wa they say good things come in small packages ;D , took her mcd's just me n her met every1 there , spoke abit n got 2 know eachother well like :D , so im takin her out again 2moz n saturday 2 the cinema with a few others so hopefully by saturday were gonna b with eachother :D(yn) .

the past is the past theres a reason y she isnt in my future :)<3

life

Well things couldnt get better tbh :D , got another tattoo booked in for a weeks time cant wait !!!:D

Manchester like 85% - 90% on its way of being done just gotta book a hotel like then gotta think of a date xD , theres gonna b like 10-15 of us all goin up :L were takin like 2-3 cars so by the looks of it im driving around all weekend -___- fml !!:L:L

fp's 'IT' goes thru more boys than she goes thru her underwear fp's 2 her :L:L , everyday she has a diffrent boy like aww gotta love her tho LOL be fucked have you :L:L

ye so im sat here chatting away with u because my cod disc is fuking broke !! gonna have 2 buy a new 1 now :/ got good news tho :D sisters baught a new swift sport its well mint !!! gonna have 2 sell my clio tho :( so i can go on her car n go in halfs with tha :/

Going 2 watch liverpool n spurs sunday :D cnt wait 2 watch the scousers batter them n get all 3 points n finish 5th ;)

Spent the night in beths house with every1 :L fp's was propa ace !!! few things went on through the night with people buh everything went fine :) soph wasnt there so some1 had 2 take her place for the night so i looked at my cuz gf's best mate for a few hours then she tried 2 b bossy n shit so bye :)!!  later tha night she got all horny n things so gave her a good seeing 2 :L:L  caught my cuz avin a sex his misses !!!:L LEGEND!!!! , pissed in my mates pint n told him its carling so he drank it n spewd is ring up :L:L


got done for not wearing a seat belt yet again -____- gotta pay £80 fine fml :L:L , not sure on wa car 2 get next :/


things r goin hard atm :/ kinda talked 2 katy a few days ago , then was on a massive downer for about a day or 2 over other things anyways went cinema n watched scream 4 !!! was propa ace fp's just went with my cuz n his misses n her mate the 1 tha i tuned b4 the party :L , buh all good :)


off out now tho taking soph n some others down cardiff 2 watch the devils play <3


laters fuk face!!

hmmmm..... :/

Dont know how 2 take 2days news tbh :/ im abit sad n shit buh at the same time happy about it because now i know it was all a dream :): , when things isnt goin good with u n the girl u wanna b with heres a sayin mend it dont end it , thats true because when tha 1 person tells you the same as you been telling them for the past few weeks for tha 1 moment it feels as if uv lost everything in life , everything that means anything 2 u or anyone who's there for u n other things feels as if its gone :/ , when u see the girl of ur life let me tell u its cool infact the feeling is out of this world then when u speak 2 her or play ping pong  or something its even better no words can say what ur thinking at tha moment in time :L:L , then when u find out shes already getting on some1 when ur there i guess uv gotta put a smile on everytime u see her or him or just b a total prick with her untill the last day then show her or tell her u like her :)

Watching tha girl walk out of the hotel not knowing uv fell inlove with them kills , hugging them n saying goodbye not knowing urself tha 8 months down the line you still feel the same way about her , watching them going 2 the bus n not seeing her look back with a smile hurts but most of all watching her kiss another lad with out her knowing how i feel hurts the most :/ .

8 months down the line ......
Its been an up an down for the last few months with her being ill n me being a prick or her being a twat n me being sound , everytime we argue it pushed me away even more , everytime she rings me telling me she loves me when shes drunk brings me closer 2 her buh it went 2 far then everything i had for the girl turned in 2 hate because of wa she did , ye im a lad who abso loves a girl n if i could id b with her now , huggin up 2 her like we said , buh things change people change !!!!

When u love a girl is hard 2 walk away from her , iv done it so many times im use 2 it :/ buh im fed up of walkin away from her i wanna b bringing her closer 2 me not pushin her away :/ , i love the girl more than she thinks , even more than any1 thinks ...., just wanna tell her so bad tha i love her but i guess its for the best if i dont :/ its better if we just never speak again :/

Never forget that 1 night on the 6th floor tha changed my life , time 2 move on like u said im sorry laters </3

life :')

Know when u love a girl u seen a few times in 1 week but still inlove with them like 8 months down the line its bad trust me :L , things gone all 2 hell with us its not nice tbh buh if it makes her happy then im happy :) , make u think about the times u had n when you had her by 1 song coming on the ipod :/ it sucks !!! , just hope she knows deep down i still wan her n need her right by me because without her im nothing FACT:/.

Booked my tattoo ready for when i come back off stag week with the money i saved from goin manchester but thats out the window :L:L .

got some luush tops n shit for stag cost abit but all good :L just hope i dont fall in love on this holiday hey:L?

 bit later on were all goin down the footy field just for a chill n kick around n things hope leah's goin again :D tell u more about her 2moz or summin ;) , doing my hair again 2moz or summin with a few of the stag lads so happy days :) speak 2moz laters dude

last few days :)

Fp's been a good few days bar this 1 girl texing me -_____- , me n this girl spilt up because she still loves this propa gay boy :L:L , the day b4 we broke up she was like i love u n shit then asked me out n said tha she wants us 2 work then the next day it changed :L tbh i dont want anything 2 do with her anymore :/ theres a few things she should know :/ but she wont have any ov it so its her choice :) , i say i cant stand her when i can because i still love the douche bag -____- buh its life you move on like i have then she tex me n shit n it gets on my tit coz i know we eint ment 2 b n tha , she thinks im kidding n 1 night im gonna ring her up n say things i really mean but im not its gone 2 far for us i say i hate her because atm i do but she thinks im kidding :L:L

anyway played footy for wales college and schools earlier against scotland at our place won 3-1 :) but got england college n schools next tuesday at home -___- should be fun :D , also went n baught loads of things for going out n just walking around n stuff :) but couldnt spend the same amount as i normally do because my car is fuked :/:L:L 

Went 2 watch scream 4 on thursday with my mate n his misses n her mate ;D , the movie was good buh the aftermath was out of this world ;) , going back on a date with them next monday then gonna ask her 2 come up mine on thursday b4 i go away on holz n try 2 get 2 know eachother more n things then see where that takes us :D<3 

good times & bad times :D

Died my hair red :L:L its well nice fp's , took me 45 mins 2 do it :L:L

anyway know the girl i spoke about the other night ....? well i got with her she asked me felt like a propa cock because i didnt ask her out :L:L , buh its like for a moment she wanted us 2 work n everything buh now its like she couldnt care less about us :/ so im starting 2 get fed up already tbh buh i wanna make it work this time because i know i love her :D im gonna start acting like i dont care aswell see where tha takes me :L




Hope 2moz makes me smile n forget about me  n the girl for the day :) few beers after work with the lads n ladies cant go wrong :D

Girls Girls GIRLS :@ !!!!

Don't you just hate arguing with that 1 person who you love?

Some times she can be cute , lovely , the girl who i first fell in love with , but then other times she's a total dick then we start to argue over something stupid , but the bad thing about it is she cant take a joke so if your playing about with her she takes it to heart like she did just a second ago :/.

Couple of nights ago i told her it was over that i couldn't do it anymore at that time she was okay with it because she was with her mates and things i also lost my head got angry with her for a stupid reason . Then when she got home she started texing me so i rang her and explained my reasons why i couldn't do it anymore and why it was over :/ then she started crying saying things that made me relies that this girl really does want me and stuff after tha it was sorted and things got back to the old us again :D .

lately shes been abit weird with me as in saying she wants to be with me then a few days later its like shes ignoring me but i guess i should be more like her , shouldn't care about us or anything see where tha ends up hey :)?

sometimes i feel like giving up , feel like there's no hope for us anymore then things start coming to my mind about trust because she cheated then when shes out i cant help but think about her , i know one day if we keep it like we are always arguing and shit then its over for good  :/ </3

us in Spain  10 <3

Shopping

Went out with few of the lads n girls :') , spent over £200 for holidays just wish i was going back to the same place as last year :/ god i miss tha place bad and the people who was there :/ met the most beautiful girl on that holiday fp's :) thats it for now gimps laters ;D