hmmmm..... :/

Dont know how 2 take 2days news tbh :/ im abit sad n shit buh at the same time happy about it because now i know it was all a dream :): , when things isnt goin good with u n the girl u wanna b with heres a sayin mend it dont end it , thats true because when tha 1 person tells you the same as you been telling them for the past few weeks for tha 1 moment it feels as if uv lost everything in life , everything that means anything 2 u or anyone who's there for u n other things feels as if its gone :/ , when u see the girl of ur life let me tell u its cool infact the feeling is out of this world then when u speak 2 her or play ping pong  or something its even better no words can say what ur thinking at tha moment in time :L:L , then when u find out shes already getting on some1 when ur there i guess uv gotta put a smile on everytime u see her or him or just b a total prick with her untill the last day then show her or tell her u like her :)

Watching tha girl walk out of the hotel not knowing uv fell inlove with them kills , hugging them n saying goodbye not knowing urself tha 8 months down the line you still feel the same way about her , watching them going 2 the bus n not seeing her look back with a smile hurts but most of all watching her kiss another lad with out her knowing how i feel hurts the most :/ .

8 months down the line ......
Its been an up an down for the last few months with her being ill n me being a prick or her being a twat n me being sound , everytime we argue it pushed me away even more , everytime she rings me telling me she loves me when shes drunk brings me closer 2 her buh it went 2 far then everything i had for the girl turned in 2 hate because of wa she did , ye im a lad who abso loves a girl n if i could id b with her now , huggin up 2 her like we said , buh things change people change !!!!

When u love a girl is hard 2 walk away from her , iv done it so many times im use 2 it :/ buh im fed up of walkin away from her i wanna b bringing her closer 2 me not pushin her away :/ , i love the girl more than she thinks , even more than any1 thinks ...., just wanna tell her so bad tha i love her but i guess its for the best if i dont :/ its better if we just never speak again :/

Never forget that 1 night on the 6th floor tha changed my life , time 2 move on like u said im sorry laters </3

life :')

Know when u love a girl u seen a few times in 1 week but still inlove with them like 8 months down the line its bad trust me :L , things gone all 2 hell with us its not nice tbh buh if it makes her happy then im happy :) , make u think about the times u had n when you had her by 1 song coming on the ipod :/ it sucks !!! , just hope she knows deep down i still wan her n need her right by me because without her im nothing FACT:/.

Booked my tattoo ready for when i come back off stag week with the money i saved from goin manchester but thats out the window :L:L .

got some luush tops n shit for stag cost abit but all good :L just hope i dont fall in love on this holiday hey:L?

 bit later on were all goin down the footy field just for a chill n kick around n things hope leah's goin again :D tell u more about her 2moz or summin ;) , doing my hair again 2moz or summin with a few of the stag lads so happy days :) speak 2moz laters dude

last few days :)

Fp's been a good few days bar this 1 girl texing me -_____- , me n this girl spilt up because she still loves this propa gay boy :L:L , the day b4 we broke up she was like i love u n shit then asked me out n said tha she wants us 2 work then the next day it changed :L tbh i dont want anything 2 do with her anymore :/ theres a few things she should know :/ but she wont have any ov it so its her choice :) , i say i cant stand her when i can because i still love the douche bag -____- buh its life you move on like i have then she tex me n shit n it gets on my tit coz i know we eint ment 2 b n tha , she thinks im kidding n 1 night im gonna ring her up n say things i really mean but im not its gone 2 far for us i say i hate her because atm i do but she thinks im kidding :L:L

anyway played footy for wales college and schools earlier against scotland at our place won 3-1 :) but got england college n schools next tuesday at home -___- should be fun :D , also went n baught loads of things for going out n just walking around n stuff :) but couldnt spend the same amount as i normally do because my car is fuked :/:L:L 

Went 2 watch scream 4 on thursday with my mate n his misses n her mate ;D , the movie was good buh the aftermath was out of this world ;) , going back on a date with them next monday then gonna ask her 2 come up mine on thursday b4 i go away on holz n try 2 get 2 know eachother more n things then see where that takes us :D<3 

good times & bad times :D

Died my hair red :L:L its well nice fp's , took me 45 mins 2 do it :L:L

anyway know the girl i spoke about the other night ....? well i got with her she asked me felt like a propa cock because i didnt ask her out :L:L , buh its like for a moment she wanted us 2 work n everything buh now its like she couldnt care less about us :/ so im starting 2 get fed up already tbh buh i wanna make it work this time because i know i love her :D im gonna start acting like i dont care aswell see where tha takes me :L




Hope 2moz makes me smile n forget about me  n the girl for the day :) few beers after work with the lads n ladies cant go wrong :D

Girls Girls GIRLS :@ !!!!

Don't you just hate arguing with that 1 person who you love?

Some times she can be cute , lovely , the girl who i first fell in love with , but then other times she's a total dick then we start to argue over something stupid , but the bad thing about it is she cant take a joke so if your playing about with her she takes it to heart like she did just a second ago :/.

Couple of nights ago i told her it was over that i couldn't do it anymore at that time she was okay with it because she was with her mates and things i also lost my head got angry with her for a stupid reason . Then when she got home she started texing me so i rang her and explained my reasons why i couldn't do it anymore and why it was over :/ then she started crying saying things that made me relies that this girl really does want me and stuff after tha it was sorted and things got back to the old us again :D .

lately shes been abit weird with me as in saying she wants to be with me then a few days later its like shes ignoring me but i guess i should be more like her , shouldn't care about us or anything see where tha ends up hey :)?

sometimes i feel like giving up , feel like there's no hope for us anymore then things start coming to my mind about trust because she cheated then when shes out i cant help but think about her , i know one day if we keep it like we are always arguing and shit then its over for good  :/ </3

us in Spain  10 <3

Shopping

Went out with few of the lads n girls :') , spent over £200 for holidays just wish i was going back to the same place as last year :/ god i miss tha place bad and the people who was there :/ met the most beautiful girl on that holiday fp's :) thats it for now gimps laters ;D